I worry about how people will see me, but even more so, I fear how seeing me for me will make them feel about themselves.
Is it not frustrating to realize that aspect of our brains that we need most to help us survive and cope through our depression is also the exact area of our brain that is associated with dysfunction from our depression?
I would much rather reach 50, looking back and wishing I had a child, than bring a child into this world that I did not want.
I wish I could have seen my own value then. I wish I could have believed in myself and been confident in all I have to offer, rather than allowing my worth to be determined by the thoughts and actions of the men I loved.
“Sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck.”
I am sure depression affects everyone a little differently…but for me, it causes a ridiculous amount of over-analysis. It is hard for me, knowing what I now know, to look back at my thoughts and actions in the past and see how greatly my depression … Continue reading Analyze